11 Things People Don’t Realize You’re Doing Because You’re A Workaholic With Anxiety

Camila Cordeiro

1. You have insomnia.

You find yourself falling asleep at your own desk because you can never get enough sleep during the night. It takes you forever to get to sleep because you are constantly replaying the work day over and over again.

2. You frequently have a couple drinks after work to calm down.

As soon as you get home from work, you pour yourself a glass of wine or pull out a can of beer. It is the only thing that soothes your nerves and tension that is always about what you didn’t do perfectly that day.

3. You isolate yourself from everyone.

You’ve stopped talking to your friends, your coworkers and your family. You put every ounce of energy into your work because you feel like it’s the only thing you’re good at it. Your work makes life worth living.

4. You dread meetings with your boss.

Whenever your boss schedules a group meeting or a on one on talk, you become a bundle of nerves. You even make yourself sick with worry of getting in trouble, or getting criticized. You do everything you can to avoid those meetings and even go as far as faking sick.

5. You’re constantly worried about being fired.

It’s all you can think about. Will that mistake cost me this job? What if they find out that I forgot to send that email? Whenever you are even a tiny bit critiqued, you brace yourself for hearing the words, ‘I need to let you go’. It’s one of your greatest fears.

6. You say ‘yes’ to everything.

You don’t know how to ‘no’ to new responsibilities and challenges. Even if you kill yourself doing all of the new projects, you think it’s better than saying no to your boss. In your head, work is more important than your mental health.

7. You view your coworkers as competition.

Your coworkers aren’t people you hang out with. They aren’t your friends. You don’t even want to acknowledge their existence. To you, they are your enemies because they take you from being the number one employee.

8. Even when you have done nothing wrong, you replay the day over and over again after you’re done with work.

You constantly and consistently replay the day over in your head. It can drive you crazy because you can’t help it. Your brain is wired this way and you can’t stop beating yourself up about that one thing you said, or that one tiny little mistake.

9. You work on weekends.

You don’t know how to relax anymore or go out with friends. You convince yourself that you have to work on your days off, in order to be the best. You work day and night even on holidays and weekends. You don’t know how to stop.

10. You hate going on vacation.

Vacation makes you more anxious than anything. You worry about what you’re missing. You worry about falling behind. You worry that someone will call you lazy or a fake. So, you’ve stopped going on vacations all together.

11. You cancel plans with others so you can make more room for work.

Even if it’s a date that you really want to go on, or a birthday party for your dearest friends, you choose work over them. that’s when you know, you have a problem.

Source: http://allofbeer.com/2017/10/14/11-things-people-dont-realize-youre-doing-because-youre-a-workaholic-with-anxiety/

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America’s choice this November is between a populist and a technocrat | Carlo Invernizzi Accetti

Theres a reason why this election is all about the lesser of two evils and its a trend that may come to define politics as we know it

Trump isnt fit to serve as president of the United States. Clinton isnt relating emotionally to the electorate. These points of contention seem to be at the heart of debates around this years presidential election. Gone is the traditional division between left and right, or liberalism and conservatism. What we are seeing instead, is a competition between technocracy and populism.

It is little surprise that this election has been described as a choice between the lesser of two evils. We have a reliable, if uncharismatic, policy wonk on one hand; and an entertaining, if unpredictable, maverick on the other. And it is this opposition competence v charisma rather than substantive policy disagreements, that is framing the election.

Consider that, when it comes to policy positions, these two candidates are among the most different in recent memory. Yet such differences dont really seem to be at the center of attention, either for the candidates themselves, or the public at large.

In their recent debate, Clinton said explicitly that she intends to increase taxes for the rich and address the systemic racism of the countrys criminal justice system: positions that not even Obama had dared to take so plainly four or eight years ago. Trump instead declared he intends to lower taxes for the top income brackets and dismissed the problem of racism as a question of law and order. Similarly, on international trade, they took almost diametrically opposed stances: Clinton sees it as a factor of growth and stability, whereas Trump says trade is killing our country.

Yet all this somehow remains in the background. The real core of what Clinton was attempting to communicate is that she is more competent than her rival, because she has greater policy expertise. This explains her reliance on the opinion of independent experts to make the case for her economic plan, as well as the insistence on fact-checking Trumps assertions.

Conversely, most of Trumps efforts went into depicting Clinton as a political insider, who is responsible for the mess the country is supposedly in at the moment, while presenting himself as a strong leader who can solve the countrys problems precisely by virtue of his decisive and unconventional approach.

The roots of this populist drift in the Republican party go back several decades. Although the partys current establishment professes to be outraged by at least some of Trumps excesses, there is a direct line of continuity running from the late 1990s bid to impeach Bill Clinton over the Lewinsky affair, to George W Bushs self-presentation as the candidate one would most like to have beer with, the choice of Sarah Palin as John McCains running mate in 2012 and many features of Trumps current campaign.

The Democrats response has been to move progressively towards the center, assuming the mantle of reason and respectability, while presenting their rivals as irresponsible mavericks. No wonder the substantive policy differences between them have fallen into the background: when politics is structured around the opposition between competent technocrats on one hand and anti-establishment populists on the other, there is little room left for substantive policy disagreement in the middle.

Nor is America alone in this shift. The debate over Brexit in the UK was fought along the same axis of opposition. The core of the Remain campaigns argument rested on the opinion of experts, according to which leaving the European Union would have had objectively catastrophic consequences for the country. In contrast, the Leave campaign appealed to many of the same sentiments that underscore Trumps appeal: widespread anti-establishment feeling, guttural nationalism and concerns about immigration and international trade.

The paradox is that all this is depoliticizing public debate, precisely as campaigns become more bitter and conflictual. Democratic politics depends on the confrontation between rival political agendas and ideological visions. But in the struggle between technocrats and populists all we are left with is the choice between preserving the system as it is or burning it all to the ground. For those who want meaningful political alternatives, this doesnt bode well.

Source: http://allofbeer.com/2017/10/14/americas-choice-this-november-is-between-a-populist-and-a-technocrat-carlo-invernizzi-accetti/

Video of Penn State fraternity incident was deleted, officer testifies

(CNN)Prosecutors say surveillance video was deleted from the basement of the house where they say Penn State’s Beta Theta Pi pledges were forced to drink alcohol for a hazing ritual, and more charges are now imminent against at least one of the fraternity brothers already facing multiple counts in the hazing death of 19-year-old sophomore Tim Piazza.

Scicchitano testified he now believes that video before 10 a.m. February 6 was deleted.
Prosecutor Stacy Parks Miller later told reporters that charges are “imminent” but that the investigation is ongoing. As soon as they have enough to charge, they will do so, Parks Miller said.
    Eighteen fraternity brothers, plus the fraternity itself, have been charged in connection with Piazza’s death. A grand jury found that the brothers put Piazza and other pledges through a hazing ritual called “the gauntlet,” where they were forced to go through an obstacle course of alcohol vodka, beer and wine consuming dangerous amounts in a short period. They are all fighting the charges. Beta Theta Pi International Fraternity has described the allegations as “incredibly disheartening.”
    Surveillance video recovered from the first floor and shown in court in June shows Piazza stumbling and staggering after the gauntlet. He then disappears near the basement steps, and is later seen being carried unconscious by fraternity brothers to a couch.
    At some point, he wakes, but struggles for hours on the tape, repeatedly falling before disappearing again near the basement steps. Prosecutors say he was ashen and stiff by the time fraternity brothers called police, more than 12 hours after his first fall. He died of injuries to his head and spleen.
    Michael Leahey, attorney for Beta Theta Pi, said the defense has not received the full surveillance video, only portions of it, and he wants a forensic analysis of it.
    “The prosecution has declined to share the video,” Leahey said. “To my knowledge, there is no evidence of any video deletions.”
    Piazza family attorney Tom Kline said the new allegation was shocking to the family.
    “There is no better way to describe the existence of videotape of that basement other than the word stunning,” he said. “It is a fact that I don’t think any of the defense lawyers thought was ever going to surface.”
    Thursday’s hearing focused on the defense, with attorneys for many of the men pushing back on the prosecution’s theory of what happened.
    Theodore Simon, attorney for one of the fraternity members, argued that the brothers could not have known Piazza was so badly injured. Simon, during cross examination, referenced parts of the surveillance tape in which, he said, Piazza does seem to walk upright without stumbling. He argued that Piazza looked intoxicated, but was “cognitively functional.”
    Simon and other attorneys also pushed back on the prosecution theory that Piazza was forced to participate in the gauntlet.
    Attorney Marc Neff, said his client, and other brothers who do not drink alcohol, were previously admitted to the fraternity without having to participate in the gauntlet.
    Several defense attorneys also disagreed with the collective nature of the charges, arguing that not everyone was there for each event.
    Kline responded, saying, “They planned a hazing event. They acknowledged there was a hazing event in text messages after the fact. And in between they executed a hazing plot and they caused injury and death. That’s what all of the facts collectively show here. You can parse out individual facts but you can’t get away from the collective picture.”
    The hearing got contentious, with defense attorneys 16 of them are in court together, because two of the defendants waived their right to the hearing calling objections on one another. Parks Miller also accused Simon of disrespect, yelling at him to “show some respect” toward Piazza’s family, seated in the front row of the court.
    At one point Parks Miller accused Simon of “acting like there is no judge here.”
    The hearing is expected to continue Friday, with a judge possibly ruling at the end of the day.

    Source: http://allofbeer.com/2017/10/14/video-of-penn-state-fraternity-incident-was-deleted-officer-testifies/

    Tired Wife Neglects Husband for 4 YearsThen She Writes a Confession for Millions to See

    He was tired of her excuses, so she just couldn’t hold it in any longer…

    By Laura Birks

    Dear Husband,

    I am sorry.

    Im sorry that youve been neglected for the last four-and-a-half years. Im sorry that your needs are secondary. I assure you, you are still one of my top prioritiesyou just arent on the top of the list anymore.

    I know that you have needs, wants, dreams and desires. When I tell you that I want to be the one you lean on, I mean it. I know you are tired of my excuses of being tired, having a headache or am already snoring when you snuggle up next to me. Trust me, I wish I had the energy I had five years ago. Hell, I wish I had the energy I had two weeks ago when I washed, folded and actually put away all 10 loads of laundry. Of course, you didnt see that because I was letting you get some much needed sleep.

    I know that some days it feels like we have a business partnership. And youre right. Some dayseven weeksfeel that way. Know that I want better for our marriage, for us. Because together, we are damn good.

    The problem is, my life, my brain and my body are so wrapped up in being a mother to those little boys wholook exactly like you. Even after theyre sound asleep and were sitting on the couch watching a movie, my brain is still in mother mode.

    Im thinking about tomorrow; Im thinking about 10 years from now. Im wondering if you have work clothes for tomorrow. Im worried about money, milestones and milk. Do we have enough milk? I cant turn off being a mom. It is who I am now. And it is physically, emotionally and mentally exhausting.

    I dont want you to think you arent as important as you once were. I couldnt live this life without you and I wouldnt want to, either. But the simple fact is, youre an adult and you can do things for yourself. You can vote, so you can make your own lunch. You are legally able to drive a car, so you can figure out how to make a doctors appointment.

    When you come home from work, you, unfortunately, are getting the worst version of me. I gave our children the best. A little secret: Sometimes, some days, there just isnt a best version of me. There just isnt.

    I cant worry about your health, the boys health, the pets health and my health. Who do you think gets ignored? Its not you. Its not our children or our pets. When I say I dont feel well, when I say I havent been sleeping, its because I havent been taking care of me.

    Yes, you tell me to go to the doctor, to eat better, to drink more water, but I am my very last priority. I know I need to change that and Im not complaining. Im explaining that when something has to give, because no one person can do it all, I am the thing that gives.

    Im worried about your sleep apnea, your allergies, your knee spasms. I am worried about the rash Alex has, and the snotty nose that Ben suddenly started with. I am concerned about our dogs ears and what its going to cost to take her to the vet.

    While Im thinking about it, Im worried that the fish have too much algae in their tank and the water needs to be changed. Ill just add that to the never-ending list of things I will feel guilty about when I am trying to sleep tonight. None of this your fault. I am not blaming you, or wishing you were any different.

    You do extraordinary things for our family. You work harder than any person I know. You care more about everyone, including me, than any other human I have ever met. I love you a little more each time I see you help someone knowing you will never get anything in return. You are the kindest, most loving father to our children. There is a reason they cry when you leave for work. Yes, it stings a little, but knowing that you are their role model in life fills me with love and pride.

    I am not the person you married 11years ago. I have changed and evolved into a wife, mother, friend and keeper of all schedules. I am a party planner and a personal shopper. I am a chef specializing in chicken nuggets and pasta. I am a housekeeper that cant keep a house. I am the cheerleader and the librarian. I am the night and the day nurse.

    I wouldnt change any of it. I dont want any other life. I love you and I love the life that we created. But I am not the spontaneous, beer drinking, sexy bad girl you met way back when. I am a mother. And it is all of me.

    Love Always,

    Your Wife

    **Dear Husband: I’m Not the Person You Marriedappeared originally on Parent.Co. Used with permission.

    About the Author:Laura Birks is a freelance writer based in New Jersey. She spends her days writing and nights chasing 4-year-old twin boys. She currently is a regular contributor for Twiniversity.com and has been featured on Scarymommy, Role Reboot and SheKnows among others. You can find her on Twitter, @leroy6168.

    Source: http://allofbeer.com/2017/10/13/tired-wife-neglects-husband-for-4-yearsthen-she-writes-a-confession-for-millions-to-see/

    6 Frightening New Drugs (You’ve Never Heard Of)

    Since the dawn of time, mankind has endeavored to keep finding new ways to get totally shitfaced. And just because the gamut of known narcotics now ranges from a cheeky evening sherry to face-melting LSD doesn’t mean people have stopped looking for (cheaper) alternatives. So let’s take a look at the latest discoveries our often short-lived pharmaceutical pioneers have come up with.

    6

    People Are Abusing Their Pets’ Medication (And Their Pets)

    Veterinarians may not be as well regarded as human doctors, but that doesn’t mean their work is any less difficult. Performing surgery on a cat is just as hard as it is on a person — except that if you screw up on a person, you can’t just bury them in a shoe box and call it a day (usually). Vets need about the same quality of tools and drugs to do their job properly. So it was only a matter of time before addicts figured out that if animal medication is good enough to knock out a Great Dane, it will probably also get them plenty high.

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    It’s why Shaggy ditched weed and moved on to Scooby Snacks.

    Unsurprisingly, most animal drugs aren’t much different than the stuff hospitals pump into us. (Try not to dwell on the fact that your healthcare’s probably not much better than your pug’s.) Heavy-duty pain relievers (like Tramadol), Valium, and even ketamine are generally available to ailing animals. The main difference between human and animal medication seems to be that one of them is a lot harder to obtain. Most of our happy pills are controlled substances, which means they’re carefully tracked. That’s not the case for animal meds, though, because nobody expects a horse to get hooked on … uh, horse.

    But until legislation is put into place to stop these druggie pet owners, some states have started educating vets on how to deal with addicts coming into their practice to get high off their cat’s supply. They’re mainly taught to recognize suspicious behavior, like when owners try to get refills early, or ask for medication by name, or pretend their pet fell down the stairs but then not immediately show a YouTube video of the fall to prove it.

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    “Does that dog suppository fit in a pipe?” is another question that raises red flags.

    But what if your pet is just too damn healthy to exploit? In 2002, one owner was caught having trained his dog to cough on command just so he could get his hands on some sweet cough medicine. But that takes a lot of work, so some addicts just resort to intentionally hurting their pets to get a fix. In Kentucky, a trash monster named Heather Pereira was discovered to have cut her dog with razor blades as an excuse to keep getting her paws on his pain medication. She was sentenced to four years in prison (28 in dog years). But that’s small potatoes compared to one small drug ring in Oregon, who used a puppy mill as a front to amass over 100,000 Tramadol pills, neglecting the puppies to the point that their crates had been flooded with their own feces. Those assholes managed to find a way to make standard drug dealers look like pillars of the community.

    5

    Drinking Russian Bath Lotions

    In December 2016, over 100 people from the Siberian city of Irkutsk were rushed to the hospital due to alcohol-related poisoning (you may assume this is normal for Christmas in Siberia, but we assure you it is not). Their drink of choice? A strong beverage that will not only put hair on your chest, but also keep that hair silky and clean.

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    Even hotel minibars are getting in on the action.

    Boyaryshnik is the most popular bath lotion in Siberia. Not because of the cleansing power of its hawthorn berries, but because Russians like to drink it. And while no one among us can claim that they’ve never considered chugging a bottle of delicious-smelling children’s shampoo, nobody is drinking it for its refreshing scent, but because it gets them fucked right up. The lotion has such a high alcohol content, poor Russians have been using it as a substitute for expensive vodka. But when a bad batch of lotion hit the streets of Irkutsk, the bath-time fun drink killed 61 people in record time. Instead of containing ethanol (the fun alcohol), the tainted Boyaryshnik contained methanol (the “I’m blind and I can’t feel my legs” alcohol) and antifreeze. Not exactly a party, unless your idea of a party entails shedding your physical body in order to board the mothership.

    At this point it needs to be made very clear that this tragic incident didn’t happen because people started drinking bath lotion, but because they started drinking counterfeit bath lotion. This means some criminal ring thought it more profitable to make fake bath lotion than fake vodka. And they weren’t wrong. Today, over 12 million Russians drink surrogate alcohol, including perfume, after-shave, antifreeze, and window cleaner. Is it weird that some of those sound a lot more appealing than the others?


    Your answer depends on how much you like blue Gatorade.

    The reason for these soapy binges is mainly due to Vladimir Putin’s government, which has been steadily raising the tax on alcohol for years in order to curb excessive drinking and fill its coffers with booze money. This has left many Russians too poor to support their habit, turning to their shower caddies for sweet relief. Putin has promised to lower taxes in the future and divert the government’s attention to catching alcohol counterfeiters. Until then, Russians will just have to take pride in having the most fragrant alcoholics in the world.

    4

    Molly Usually Isn’t MDMA (But Something Way Crazier)

    Molly is the uptown rich kid variant of ecstasy, a designer drug endorsed by paragons of cool like Jay-Z and Miley Cyrus. That must mean it’s safe as houses, right? Sure, MDMA is about as chill as hardcore drugs can get, but that pill you got off that guy juggling glow sticks? That isn’t molly. And it will probably melt your insides to a pulp.


    Kind of like that other Molly. The one from the gym.

    So what are these party people ingesting instead of their expensive designer drugs? It could be anything, really, from variants of meth to cannabinoids to even bath salts. All they have in common is that they’re definitely not molly and they’re definitely made by lazy idiots. Most of them are too new to have a unique name (or their makers couldn’t come up with a catchy one), so they just slid into the molly brand. Sometimes you can get “lucky” and stumble upon some chemist’s pet project like Bromo-Dragonfly, which is pretty much LSD but with “effects that can last for up to three days.” But a much more common narcotic cuckoo egg is benzylpiperazine, or BZP, the poster child for why this fake molly trend is so dangerous. BZP is incredibly easy to make, but takes a lot of cleanup to remove all of the toxins, which prevents massive kidney and liver damage — among many other terrible side effects. Dealers don’t care about that though, because it’s not like someone is going to call the Better Business Bureau and make a complaint.


    They don’t worry about losing customers when their customer base is “everyone who clubs.”

    Molly has become just another brand, a marketing slogan with about as much truth in advertising as “9 out of 10 dentists agree” or “Jamie Lee Curtis can help you poop better.” Its umbrella status has become such an issue that many molly-centric venues like EDM concerts, raves, and orgies have started setting up testing booths to make sure people know what’s in their entertainment for the evening. The result is quite staggering, with only typically a quarter of pills tested containing only MDMA — and just as many containing no MDMA whatsoever. Meanwhile, out of all the molly the DEA seized and tested between 2009 and 2013, only as few as 13 percent of the pills showed any trace of MDMA. You’re about as likely to get high on MDMA from some molly you bought in a warehouse loft as you would from buying Flintstones vitamins in a drugstore.


    But you will get something to make you try to brake cars with your bare feet.

    3

    Fentanyl Can Kill A Person Just By Touching Them

    Heroin might just be the scariest drug out there, especially to non-drug users. It feels like one of those drugs that, just by looking at a spoonful, could ruin your life, your health, and just about every tooth you have. But guess what, you nerd? Heroin is for wimps now. Real tough-guy addicts take fentanyl, an opioid so strong it’s the last high you’ll ever need. Or have, for that matter.


    As the marketing slogan says, “Fentanyl: It’s fatyl.”

    The entire fentanyl family of opioids is just a carousel of the worst horrors drugs imaginable. Like pink, a type of fentanyl that was given its cutesy name because snorting any more than what fits on the tip of a pinky is enough to kill you. In fact, just touching this shit is enough to go into cardiac arrest. Typically, one grain of a fentanyl-based drug has the same potency as a hit of heroin. Two grains will make you overdose. Not that that’s terrifyingly risky. After all, heroin addicts are known for their steady hands and attention to detail.

    Then there’s carfentanil, which is like regular fentanyl except that you’re about as likely to survive a hit of it as you would a ten-car pile-up. It’s roughly 100 times more powerful than regular fentanyl and 10,000 times more so than morphine. That’s because carfentanil was never intended for human consumption: It’s an elephant tranquilizer. The only time its effect on humans was ever considered was to test how quickly it could kill them.


    The answer: slightly faster than the elephant.

    Ironically, it’s because of the potency of the fentanyl family that they’re incredibly easy drugs to obtain. In Canada, for example, border guards cannot open packages weighing less than 30 grams without consent — and 30 grams of fentanyl is enough to last a lifetime (which for fentanyl users is about half an hour), making them a cinch to smuggle. This easy access has been a scourge on Canada, being partially responsible for increasing overdoses tenfold in just one year.

    So how come it’s easier to score mega-heroin than it is just good old classic heroin? Fittingly, this dragon also comes all the way from the home of the opioid, China. China has no real regulations against manufacturing or distributing fentanyl-based substances — and it doesn’t look like that’ll be changing anytime soon. Over the internet, dozens if not hundreds of small, shady pharmaceutical companies are openly selling their fentanyl to clients around the globe. This makes this very dangerous drug about as easy to buy as a cheap iPhone case and for about the same cost.


    And with an equal probability of improving your already shitty life.

    2

    Synthetic Weed Is Turning The Homeless Into Zombies

    With the rapid legalization of cannabis across the United States, weed is getting a bit of an image change. No longer is it just the drug of choice for lazy stoners and geriatric hippies — it’s on the cusp of becoming as acceptable as drinking a beer or taking a sniff of nail polish. Of course, these good vibrations couldn’t last forever. Enter K2, Mary Jane’s dirtbag meth-head cousin.

    Instead of using cannabis leaves, K2 (like the famous mountain) or Scooby Snax (like the famous talking dog treats), K2 combines all of the natural goodness of oregano, which was what most college kids were smoking anyway, with the chemical garbage that are synthetic drugs. A K2 cigarette contains regular dried herbs with shitty chemical cannabinoids to make them more awesome. It’s basically the Axe Body Spray of narcotics.

    But K2 is a lot more dangerous than regular marijuana. Cannabinoids may have the same effect as THC, but have a lot more bad side effects. In 2015, over 6,000 emergency room visits involving K2 occurred in New York City alone, with two deaths already confirmed. This epidemic has been hitting the homeless community the worst, who seem to love how cost effective these cigarettes are while still making you forget you’ve been drooling on the sidewalk for six hours straight. Cannabinoid addicts wandering the street are often referred to as “zombies,” which is appropriate, as they are the type of undead best known for being easily distracted and always hungry.


    Except these ones aren’t so concerned with brains.

    While K2 itself has been illegal for a while, manufacturers keep switching up its composition, leaving sellers (including many bodegas) with a comfortable uncertainty whether their product is or isn’t actually illegal. However, with the new national ban on synthetic cannabinoids and a slew of police raids, New York hospitals have seen an 85 percent reduction in K2-related medical emergencies and homeless zombie parades.

    Still, if there’s one silver lining, it’s that, because of K2 existing, there must have been instances where angry parents shouted at their kids “Why can’t you just smoke weed like a normal person?” Now that’s progress.

    1

    NBOMe Is Lethal LSD With A Legal Loophole

    Say you want to get into LSD. You’ve heard The Beatles were into it, so that’s pretty cool. But you’ve also heard LSD is very illegal, a controlled substance that can get you quite a bit of jail time. Not to worry, scumbag drug manufacturers have found just the thing for you: 25I-NBOMe, a new and exciting LSD-like narcotic that’s not illegal just yet. And the best part is, by the time bureaucracy catches up to this loophole, you’ll already be long dead from taking a highly unstable and untested chemical.


    “McDonald’s? No way, that stuff’s full of chemicals.” – Hippie who then takes some NBOMe.

    25I-NBOMe is one of the latest of a long line of “chemical analogs” (of which you know quite a few examples having read this article), variants of known narcotics that have been altered just enough that they can’t be considered the same as the household brands they’re imitating. This makes these analog drugs technically legal, in the same way that putting mirrors on your shoes is technically legal. Rogue chemists have been playing this cat-and-mouse game with the D.E.A. since the ’70s, always trying to be a few molecular changes ahead of the curve.

    So if NBOMe is just the New Coke of LSD, why is it offing more teenagers than a camp serial killer? It turns out that its greatest asset is also what makes it so terribly dangerous. The value of chemical analogs lies in that they’re “slightly different” from their controlled cousins, but in chemistry, “slightly different” can turn your lungs into goo. And there’s no way of knowing what exactly NBOMe is capable of, as the drug was intended to be used only in animal experiments and no large human trials on its effects have ever been conducted. That means that 25I-NBOMe doesn’t have users, it only has guinea pigs.


    “Hey, I removed one atom from that boring old ‘carbon dioxide.’ Wanna try some?”

    Not that people know what they’re actually taking. The reason this particular variant is becoming so popular is because it’s 16 times stronger than its other NBOMe cousins. But people don’t tend to whip out their testing kits when someone hands them a sachet of white powder. It’s also quite a bit cheaper than LSD, so plenty of dealers try to pass it off as the brand name. The resulting trip is usually unpredictable and often fatal.

    Deaths linked to NBOMe have been described as “violent.” One 18-year-old experienced such extreme depression after mistakenly taking the drug that he tried to commit suicide by stabbing himself repeatedly in the neck with a pair of scissors. Another appeared as if “possessed,” foaming at the mouth and smashing his head against the floor. Another teen jumped off a balcony to his death high on “N-Bomb.” He thought he had taken LSD. He also thought he could fly.


    And we’ll never know if he was right because he died before we could find out.

    Since it crept into drug culture in between 2010 and 2013, the NBOMe loophole has been all but closed. By 2015, most countries had rescheduled it as the dangerous narcotic that it is, making it much harder and riskier to obtain. But with NBOMe on its way out, it’s only a matter of time before some middling chemist without scruples finds another way to mod an existing drug into something not yet illegal. So the lesson here, kids, is that if you’re going to take drugs, stick to the brands you know and trust. And don’t do a taste test.

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    Source: http://allofbeer.com/2017/10/13/6-frightening-new-drugs-youve-never-heard-of/

    Accuser: James Deen Had Help Raping Me

    Porn star Nicki Blue opened up about her brutal alleged assault at the hands of James Deen. But that wasn’t close to the whole story. She says Deen’s friend, a female porn executive, held her down while it happened.

    She started to fist my ass and I was pushed into a corner so I couldnt struggle or get away. Eventually I said Stop, stop and they did. It wasnt planned. They didnt ask if they could fist me in the ass, they just did it.

    Last week, porn star Nicki Blue came forward with a shocking story of assault, alleging that accused serial rapist James Deen urinated in her mouth and then sodomized her with a beer bottle. Blue says she was a 21-year-old virgin at the time.

    Blue has now revealed new information about the alleged event that occurred in December 2010 on the premises of Kink, the BDSM porn company where she was employed as a webcam model. Nicki Blue claims that Deen did not act alone in the alleged sexual assault, among other new details.

    The article got a couple of things wrong, Blue says in reference to the original published story.

    During her time at Kink, Blue resided within the Kink Castle, otherwise known as the San Francisco Armorystaying in a room designated for models. She often heard noise emanating from the downstairs area, where there was a bar on the premises known as the Speakeasy. One night she ventured out, curious about the commotion.

    I went downstairs and there were a lot of people in the Speakeasy talking and having drinks. They recognized me right away because I was considered the Kink virgin at the time, and they all liked to laugh and talk about that, says Blue, who describes it as a party atmosphere. She and fellow adult actor Deen had met before and though she didnt know him well, he seemed friendly. That night, Deen was joined by his former flame Princess Donna, a former film director and executive at Kink who ran the Kink-affiliated websites Public Disgrace, Bound Gang Bangs, and Ultimate Surrender.

    James was very drunk at the time, so was almost everyone there. He was on his phone and Princess Donna was there, the music was playing, and she started to take her top off and things got sexual between her and James, says Blue. I was like This looks fun so I started joining in.

    Blue claims it was fun at first, with things she says she considered very vanilla. That led to her performing oral sex on James, but as the encounter played out Blue says he became exceedingly rough. This is the part I dont like to relive, but the truth is he pissed in my mouth and it was really disgusting. I wasnt expecting it, says Blue. Princess Donna was still there. She was there the whole time and she was the director for a particular Kink site, so she kind of enjoys the humiliating part, too. They were trying to figure out a way to play with me that didnt involve sex with my vagina because I still had my hymen.

    They were playing with me, it was both, it wasnt just James alone, Blue says, recounting the incident. I dont know exactly who put the beer bottle in my ass at the time, they were holding my nose up kind of like you do a pig and they were putting the bottle in my ass, obviously it felt really weird and I got really scared and I kept asking to stopand then they finally stopped.

    Since going public with her story, NSFW photos of the incident have been posted to Blues blog. When she left the Speakeasy shortly thereafter, Blue says Princess Donna and Deen followed her out.

    Princess Donna and James Deen followed me to an area where theres this window, where people step out to smoke, and thats when Princess Donna and I got into it again, says Blue. She started to fist my ass and I was pushed into a corner so I couldnt struggle or get away. Eventually I said stop, stop and they did. It wasnt planned. They didnt ask if they could fist me in the ass, they just did it.

    Princess Donna did not respond to repeated requests for comment.

    I didnt even know what to say or how to say it to people, says Blue. It was embarrassing what happened. Blue allegedly posted a complaint on a Kink forum at the time, only to have it deleted. A Kink company spokesperson says that despite attempts, the alleged post has not been found.

    There are security cameras throughout the building and outside of the building, but we dont save the footage on a regular basis unless there is a report of a crime, a Kink spokesman told The Daily Beast.

    So even if the alleged incidents happened in front of a security camera, the footage, the company says, would be long gone.

    Blue is one of eight women who have come forward accusing Deen of sexual assault in a rush of solidarity that began with Deens ex-girlfriend and fellow adult star, Stoya, accusing him of rape on Twitter. In the wake of Stoyas reveal, Tori Lux wrote of her alleged sexual assault by Deen in an essay first published at The Daily Beast; then Ashley Fires revealed to the Beast that shed allegedly been assaulted by Deen at Kink; and after Fires, two other adult stars, Amber Rayne and Kora Peters, told their stories to the Beast of alleged sexual assault at the hands of Deen. These were followed by an unnamed woman called T.M., who told LAist she too was assaulted by Deen, and Deens longtime ex Joanna Angel recounting her allegedly abusive relationship with Deen on the Jason Ellis SiriusXM radio show.

    Several of the alleged sexual assault incidentsincluding Firess and Bluesoccurred at the BDSM internet porn company Kink. After the allegations, Kink announced it had severed professional ties with Deen, whod starred in over 200 movies for the company. And given the number of recent allegations against Deen that involve Kink, as well as four pending lawsuits against them alleging unsafe working conditions, the company intends to review its polices to create a safer environment for performers.

    We need to reaffirm consent on set is not consent off set. This is something a lot of us know and practice, but I think sometimes in an adult film environment some think things are a little more loose than they are, says a Kink spokesman. I think reaffirming to performers that no one has the right to touch you, and if they do, even if it is relatively innocent but unwanted, you can report it. Its something we take seriously.

    Source: http://allofbeer.com/2017/10/12/accuser-james-deen-had-help-raping-me/

    Beyonce Fans Are Pissed At Kim Kardashian For Her Baby News After Twins’ Birth

    Kim Kardashian and Kanye Westhave hired a surrogate to carry their third child, reports.

    Elite Daily reached out to their teams but did not hear back at time of publication.

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    According to documents reportedlyobtained by TMZ, Kim Kardashian and Kanye West alreadyfound their surrogate through an agency and agreed to pay $45,000 in 10 monthly installments. They also already reportedly paid a deposit of more than $68,000 to the agency.

    Obviously, this news has sent the internet into freak-out mode, but not everyone is all too pleased with the timing.

    Beyoncreportedlygave birth to her twins last week, so the internet is still reeling over that. The babies are reportedly still in the hospitalin Los Angeles being treated for jaundice, which is apparently common in premature babies and not too serious.

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    Westill don’t even know the names of the Carters’ new additions, nor has therebeen any kind of official announcement from Beyonc or Jay-Z.

    So this feels like fishy timing for news of a thirdWest baby. Can we not just let Bey have her birth week to herself?

    The timing has definitely angered the Beyhive!

    Some think this is just another example of Kim Kardashian wanting to be like Beyonc.

    Others, though, are pointing out that the Wests’ decision to have a third baby is their own personal choice and likely has nothing to do with the Carters.

    It is worth notingthe subject of a surrogate for Kim has come up on numerous occasions on

    In an episode that aired last fall, the 36-year-old appeared to be seriously considering surrogacy as an option after being told by multiple doctors that a third pregnancy for her would be high risk.

    At the time, she discussed her fears about hiring a surrogate and what that would mean. She revealed,

    I think my biggest fear is that if I had a surrogate, I just don’t know like, would I love them the same? That’s the main thing that I keep on thinking about, that scares me.

    Timing and angry Beyhive aside, we wish theWests the best as they expand their family!

    Source: http://allofbeer.com/2017/10/12/beyonce-fans-are-pissed-at-kim-kardashian-for-her-baby-news-after-twins-birth/